Words of Wisdom

Here are a few sentences from a friend which are very very apt at describing the situation

On my ex using me as an emotional crutch with problems with her current beau
“She needs a pillow to cry on. You are the pillow on which she sleeps on…with another guy”

On his being over cautious when taking certain decisions
“Sometimes the weight of the armor causes me to fall without anybody attacking”

I could not have come up with better analogies than this if I had to try.


Interesting Incident

I am very bad ass. If by that you mean, the little scrawny guy in school who got beaten up by the bigger guys. I guess that should convey very accurately the kind of terror I can strike into the hearts of baby seals!

So some time back I had gone to Pune on a business errand read job interview. It was an all night journey by bus during which I slept fitfully between some twisted fantasies of clubbing baby seals to death(I can’t stop mentioning baby seals today for some reason). It was early morning when the bus reached and I had to take an auto rickshaw to reach my lodge. So for the first time in my life I decided to actually take the auto right near the bus stand. Big mistake.

When I told the driver the destination, he said it was 40 km away from the bus stand. Now someone else would have called the bluff right away,but not me, I am not very good at geography(not that I am good at many other things apart from getting beaten up). Second big mistake.

As soon as I got into the rickshaw, the driver yells and asks another driver to get in right besides effectively blocking my exit from the auto. At this point(finally), I sense something amiss but I realized I was trapped in my ride to hell. Just to put things in perspective,people regularly keep getting robbed and killed by unscrupulous rickshaw drivers in cities like Pune. I frantically tried calling up my contact in the city, but I guess he was clubbing some seals and was too busy to answer my phone. At this point I decided to put all those years of practice violence to action and I started undoing my trouser belt (stop thinking that this is going to end with me describing some gay anime porn fantasy). I wanted to take the belt and try and strangle the driver while somehow managing to fend off the guy besides me.I did not have a clue as to how it would even be possible to strangle a man in front of me while being attacked from the side, given my ability to take a beating and not give beatings. Anyways,just as I was undoing the belt buckle another idea struck me. I faked a phone call,which meant that I was speaking on the phone while holding the end button down,in case it rings mid speech!!. In my phoney speech(cheap pun intended), I made it clear to them that I was being picked up at the location I was at. This took care of the fact that I needed to get off immediately and that someone knew where I was. I paid the minimum fare and got off. Thankful to be alive and with the satisfaction at seeing the drivers’ ill hidden frustration written in bold on their slimy faces.

Cause and effect

No matter what we do, sooner or later we are bound to take a bad step, make a mistake and hurt somebody or hurt ourselves as a result. To err is human. To make a mistake is not wrong as long as we take responsibility for the mistakes we have made and try to set things right. To admit to a mistake is no easy task and to even try to make amends is a daunting task for most of us. So what do we do when we cannot face the effects of our mistakes?

I do not know about you, I tend not to admit it to myself by running away. In running away, I have made worst mistakes because I am so busy running that I do not have the time nor the will to stop and consider the effects of my next action. In this way the army of my bad decisions and mistakes chasing me gets bigger and I start running faster chasing mirages of happiness, peace , contentment and the vicious circle continues and my life continues to burn. The worst part of the running is that I cannot even enjoy the things I used to enjoy, because my conscience beckons me. I have no peace.

I have realized this just recently and have stopped running. I have decided to face the effects ‘head on’ and try and correct what can be corrected. About what I cannot correct now, I have hope that a time may come for me to correct my wrongs. It is a tough struggle, but every success big or small brings about a huge sense of relief, closure and satisfaction sometimes enough to make me feel like a child again. Innocent and free!

Movie Critics

One of the many people who puzzle me in life are movie critics, here is why. Practically every movie that I have liked is one that has got either a thumbs down from the critics or a lukewarm ‘it was OK’ kind of review. Now before you jump off to write a comment and say that I have bad taste,let me say that I know a lot of people who share my views. The possible explanations to this inconsistency that I have been able to gather so far are

1. Me and the people I know have totally bad taste and we miss the point(s) that the critics seem to get.

2. The critics will just go ahead and bash every movie that has a tendency to be liked by the average movie goer in an effort to prove their superiority.

This just popped into my head as I was writing this post. I have way too much time on my hands to wonder about such silly things and more so to write about them. But then again what is life without the silly and not so silly musings?

In any case if you find yourself on the same side of movie critics as me then here are two movies that I would recommend WALL-E (English) and Rock On!! (Hindi)

‘Busy’ status

Its been quite a while now that I have started using google talk and have some friends. In case you are wondering ‘haven’t we all?’ to that first line, let me defend my self by saying that I am relatively new to chatting and social networking even though I have been around computers for the last 15 years atleast. Oops..i seem to have drifted off the point. Anyways back to the point, I can’t help but see a lot of my ‘friends’ with the ‘busy’ status all the time while they are online.

Here are a few doubts that I have

1. Is chatting not a leisurely activity to be done when you are not busy?  I mean honestly does anyone go to a speak easy and sit next to people who are leisurely chatting and try to work with a big board that says ‘BUSY’? In my mind a chat client is like a speak easy to be used for leisurely chatting. I could be wrong here.

2. If they are so busy and do not wish to be disturbed through the chat client, why are they online? Is it to test my literacy level,IQ or determination not to disturb them just for the heck of it?

Feel free to leave a comment if you wish to agree or disagree with me (by that I mean if you want to agree with me)